Why do I love you so much? What did I ever do to deserve this torment on my poor heart? You're like a sweet addiction that's always on my mind. A constant craving. You're kiss sends a rush through my veins, leaving me always wanting more.  More of that fix that I just need to quit. You're no good for me, or so I've been told. Everyone has their own special thing, their own sweet addiction, their secret drug. You're my heroine. The most addicting of all. Once you start it's near impossible to stop. You're the thing that keeps me going. Pushing me to never stop, never quit, never give up. My sweet addiction gives me hope for the future, for tomorrow, for the next time I taste the kiss of my perfect love. My heroine. My sweet addiction.<3

(so just a heads up, this is not pertaining to actual drugs. i dont do that. its pertaining to my feelings toward a person)

Say Goodbye to my heart.  What was once able to beat is now crippled by the damage you've caused.  The blood just pours out from all the wounds you left.  Only thing to stop it is the duct tape and gauze.  Say Goodbye to my lips and words.  My mouth is sewn shut, trying to fight the urge to kiss you and say "i love you" became to much.  My limbs lie helpless, my body lies cold, paralyzed on the floor.  Missing you drove me crazy.  Loving you broke me down.  The only time you can see me now, is if you dig me up from underground.<3

A poem written by me. it pretty much is self explanitory. noone should wanna feel like this.

Dear Stacy,

  How are things going for you?  We have changed so much over time.  Looking back I don't think that we would recognize ourself at all.  Oh how I wish I could have told you about life, about people, heartach, love, etc.  It would have saved us some heartach.  All the fun times we would have.  All of our amazing friends, they'd give us the world to make sure we never felt an ounce of saddness.  Your best friend dana is pretty much the reason for your sanity half the time.  She keeps us in check like we do for her.  Neither one of us would be anything without the other.  She is the reason love exsists. You fell long and hard for your first love.  Your friends hated him, but you saw past everything that was bad in him, like you do with everyone.  You love him so much even thought he is extremely far from a good boyfriend.  You are blinded by his love and by the good that you see.  Everything will be okay.  The arguing is horrible and you'll most likely have another breakup.  The heartach will be unbareable, but you'll get through it strong, we always do.  He loves you more than you could ever understand, even though he acts the way he does, but he cares and misses you every second he doesn't have you. It's up to him to figure out what he's missing out on, let him come to you, if it's ment to be, it'll happen.  You'r going to be graduating and entering the real world.  It's going to be rough, but you'll make it. We are going to be somebody in life.  I promise.  Live your life the way you want and not by how others want.  Thats always been something we followed by.  Lets keep to it.  I'm hoping to keep this for a very long time to look back upon when we are even older than we are now.  Right now we are only 17, and are writing as if we were older, but i think in writing this, it'll be a good thing.  Reminding you to always look within yourself for the answers.  Live your life. Love your friend. Laugh for the moments you have. Never forget the memories. Cry as if the pain would wash away. Smile to show no fear. Always be Happy for the life you are given. You are given only one, make it your own. Whenever you need a little boost or just some confidence throughout your life, read this, I'll always be here to help and guide you. Just look within yourself. I'm here always<3

Love you always,

Me<3